“La La Land” is my favorite movie. It is a musical about two lovers, Mia and Sebastian, who help each other achieve their dreams of stardom. They both fulfill their personal goals, yet don’t end up as a couple.
The first time I saw this movie, I was 16 on New Years Eve. When the credits started rolling, I sat for a long time after and stared at the screen in disbelief.
Being an eternal optimist is difficult. I try my hardest to give people and situations the benefit of the doubt. I used to assume that if you want something bad enough, it will work out the way you want it to. However, this movie was the first time that I saw my idealistic mindset shatter before my eyes.
Setting unwavering expectations has been the hardest mental roadblock I have grappled with since beginning college. While in theory it is easy to “live in the moment” or “see things objectively,” it is difficult to overcome your emotions in certain situations.
With it almost being one year since UNC-CH shut down in-person, this time has led to a series of “La La Land” moments.
A “La La Land” moment is what I describe as a complete shattering of your expectations. For some reason, the thing you wanted so bad doesn’t work out. Just like Mia and Sebastian didn’t end up together, you didn’t fulfill your goal in the manner you expected.
What I have come to realize is that although it’s unfortunate, shattered expectations lead to positive growth. Some of the “worst things” that have happened to me in the moment ended up serving as my biggest blessings.
I feel lucky that not everything has worked out the way I wanted. There is a lot of beauty that comes as a result of pain. This year has taught me to celebrate “La La Land” moments. They often lead to beautiful and fulfilling new journeys.
On this note, I ask that you take a listen to “Epilogue” from the movie’s soundtrack. The emotion conveyed through this song is similar to the highs and lows one feels during a healing journey. If you ever want to talk about “La La Land” with me, please contact me through my portfolio website.